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Thursday, October 8, 2009

boys and soccer.

So, today was weird. I felt like I was going to faint this morning so I had 1 piece of toast which had 100 calories. So I think I am going to do that from now on. Only eat a piece of toast a day. It keeps me satisfied.
But anyways, so this senior guy that I think is really hot e-mailed me in first class. we were e-mailing all of class & he said he could help me with my math homework(:
So I was like sure. & we spent all day tyring to find a time for him to help me... & we walked with me to all of my classes & to my locker(: so yeah I skipped lunch & he and his friend helped me with my math. he sounded a little pissed though when his friend volunteered to help...but anyways...he invited me to sit outside with him tomorrow during lunch!!! Only seniors can sit outside unless a senior invites you! ah! I am so happy! get to sit outside and enjoy the sun! But, I found something out. When we were talking he said that we could go to the library during lunch if I wasnt hungry..& I was like um..I eat lunch when I get home. & he said really? me to.

haha. but he actually eats lunch when he gets home. I don't(;

& the soccer part! right before lunch I had gym and I was sweating because I was running around like crazy trying to kick the soccerball and block as defence(I suck at running). So yeah, and I acidently slapped someone in the face(:

Wednesday, October 7, 2009


feel so sick! just want this week to be over with! monday cannot come soon enough! I'm so sick & tired of being sick & tired. make it happen; shock everyone* peace& love ♥

honestly. I really want to go full on hardcore ana like I was last year. doing whatever I could Now I just say whatever if I eat something. Like no! I need to do some punishing. no! I shouldnt even be eating! I am going to start going to sleep right when I get home and do my homework as quickly as I can. I am also going to print out more pictures...

& apparently flickiing your wrists with a rubber band everytime you are hungry is a good way to edvelope no hunger. I am going to try it.

& yes I know that I have already posted a lot of these...I just dont feel like looking up where I left off...so I will just start over.




only about 2 links today. sorry! I will weigh myself when report cards come around and yeaah. Hopefully I will be like 105. I am probably like 112 right now. idk.

Whaat the hell?

Okay so, this past couple of weeks I have been feeling really bloated and like crap. Tomorrow I am going to start taking my adderal again and having an apple a day. this worked before so IDK why it wouldnot work now. I am going to be posting thinspo links again! yay right? lol.
I am going to also be taking a benadryl at 4:00 so then I can go to sleep early and I wont have to worry about excessive eating. I really want to be serious about this. Christmas is coming up and when I go to shop for clothes I want to be able for a size 1 to look loose on me! & right now I am a size 1...maybe I will even fit into a 0? who knows...I'll keep you updated(: