okaaay

okay so, I finally have my adderal! & I probably gained only 2 pounds.
So, I am going to take my adderal everyday, woohoo!
& I am going to have 2 hot chocolates a day with 4 mini marshmellows.
& I am going to do 50 crunches, 15 lunges, & weight lift 10 pound weights every other day for 15 minutes.
& I am going to do stretches & drink at least 1 bottle of water a day.

OMFG OMFG OMFG

OMFG my friend allison was just here & we havent seen eachother in like literally FOREVER! So like of course we were having fun with my mom not here & we PIGGED THE FUCK OUT! like omg! so much for the plan to start today! I guess it is just going to have to start tomorrow. Well, like seriously. I had SO MUCH food today. I wasnt on my dderal today so it felt like I hadn't eaten in FOREVER. So we had pizza, some beef stew, popcorn, hot chocolate, & peanuts. like omg! so ou have any idea how many calories that is?!?!like wow. just wow. off the top of my head I bet that is 800 calories. wow. of pure CARBS. I am going to feel like SHIT tomorrow! Well, when I get home from school I am going to take my adderal. And, how it works is it makes me concentrate & like if I have any food in my body, it pretty much makes me get rid of it, so yeaah. I am going to ahve the runs tomorrow. good! lmfao. I need that! which is why I am going to take it after school. oh, & I am like going to be taking my adderal also so I go to sleep early, and SLEEP early!

fuck my fucking life!!!!!!!!!!

omfg! my fucking mother jsut went to get the adderal subscription & they wont do it! they only allow every 30 days! well its been like 3 weeks I guess so now I have to wait until fucking december 29th! fuck fuck fuck! my PLAN is deffinately ruined! THE PLAN: was to take my adderal all of vacation & only have like a bowl of cereal a day because I am not going to be doing much. & like last week I was 105 but I had a binge today so I am probably 107 now. but I was going to AIM to be 100 by january 4th (when I go back to school) & then go shopping and buy a bunch of cute clothes! BUT NO! this isall ruined! I can't get th damn adderal for another week! F MY LIFE! what I am going to do as "the plan" is take bennadryl when I get home to go to sleep aty like 5 or 6...probably 5ish.

& I am going to be drinking TONS of diet coke.

wish me lucjk,

Change of Plans

okay so change of plans. since its winter & everything I am going to eat WARM & SATISFYING things which make my taste buds more happier.

So, in the morning I am going to have hot chocolate (120 calories)
with 2 marshmellows (50 calories). I am going to tear the marshmellows in half so it looks & tastes like 4 marshmellows.
Then when I get home from school I am going to make something which tastes like apple crisp, but ISN'T apple crisp.
I am going to take 4 apple slices (50 calories) & put 2 tsp of cinamon on them (30 calories) & put them in the microwave for 1 minute 30 secconds. Tastes amazing(:

So, thats 250 calories a day.

Healthy & Happy makes it happen

Well, the last time I weighed myself was last week and I weighed 106. But, I ate like SUCH a pig yesterday at the christmas party I probably weigh 109 at least! So, I was reading SHAPE magazine & apparently eating like a happy person helps.

So I am going to fill my diet with colors. Like, I am going to drink 10 calorie yellow lemonade from a blue glass with a pink straw.

So, I am through with just eating different things everyday because that apparently doesn't seem to work.

I am going to make a plan of food to eat EVERYDAY. Like routine. It helps:

For breakfast I will start off the day with 130 calories of hot chocolate & my adderal.

I don't eat lunch at school, so I will bring some 10 calories crystal light lemonade to school & I can have a sip of that every class so that I don't get de-hydrated.

Then, when I come home I can have an apple. & it's winter, so I am of course going to be wanting something WARM to eat. So, I am going to put cinamon & splenda on it and put in in the microwave for 45 secconds. I've tried it before. tastes good(:

So, I am going to be eating like...
130 calories hot chocolate
10 calorie crystal light
15 calories cinamon
90 calorie apple
40 calories 2 tsp of sprinkle cheese


285 calories a day. sounds good. but, on tuesdays & thrusdays...I can have a slice of 80 calories toast in the morning also.

So I will be eating about 2000 calories this week. I will start something new next week.

Oh, & its not much exercise but, I am doing hockey in gym so we are like walking a hitting pucks. haha. & I walk home a half hour about 3 times a week.